Heartburrrrrrn

As I sit here eating my nummy salad with horrid heartburn...you afre rolling away. You silly girl. I love you :)

playing with your headbands :]

we were just being silly. we know youre going to look like a combination of mahmee, daddy and jude...but what exactly?! im excited to see but i LOVE being pregnant with you!

we have lots of headbands for you baby girl! and SO many pretty outfits.

we love you so much, its strange you dont have a clue who we are! you will soon andthen you can put a face to the voices and a name to the heartbeat youre hearing. we love you!

a note to my babies.

its no secret i call my Jude my "SonShine" and little Maya will be no exception. Baby girl you will be my Maya Moon.

to be able to say "Good Morning SonShine" and "Good Night Moon" will just make my day.

i worry about you both every day, but i have faith. Faith in God. God is wonderful. and He knows that my love for you is all encompassing. after all, my love for you, is exactly what He feels for me. Im his baby, just like you both are my babies, an youre also his!

sometimes Mahmee worries about things, but no matter WHAT happens...nothing breaks the bond we have as a family. the bond between Mahmee and Daddy and my sonshine and my maya moon.

i love you babies!

you make me proud with every beat of your hearts.

Never be ashamed

Never be ashamed of who you are to anyone...especially daddy or me. We love you no matter what.

Remember that.

If you ever feel you can't talk to anyone...you can come to us.

If you ever feel sad or scared or unhappy...come to us babies, we want to love and hold you and make it all better.

We will always be mahmee and daddy. And we love our babies so so much. For who you are, and nothing less. Love you pumpkins!

22 weeks baby.

You popped out :) I love it! I see and feel you! I'm blown away. Right now I'm still fightin sickness. I'm grateful the lord protects you from this virus I'm fighting. Bless your perfect heart.

National coming out day.

I wrote this on a page for acceptance of homosexuals.
This is honestly how I feel.

"I was thinking today,"national coming out day", that if my son or daughter ever came to me to come out, the only tears id cry would be tears of happinesss that I was a good enough mother that they knew they could tell me anything without judgement or sadness and that I would share in their everything, same as I would if they "came out" that they were straight. It would change nothing of my love for them. And I hope, when that day comes, that it be legal that they can marry the man or woman of their dreams :) as long as you are good to those you love, and even those you don't...you'll never disappoint me (or the lord) babies. let no one tell you otherwise :) Love you!"

You are not defined to me by the person you fall in love with babies. You, to me, are my baby. You are the one I give my heart to and set an example for. If you ever need to tell me anything at all about feelings in your heart never hesitate! I will not "tolerate" you. I will embrace you! You will always be my babies as long as you give love freely and responsibly and treat others well. Be safe, be smart, and know I'm here for you.

More on that later; mahmee is sooo sick and needs some rest.
Loves!

to my jude, and to my maya.

to my jude, and to my maya.

 "NO ONE will EVER know the strength of MY LOVE for YOU.

 After all, YOU are the ONLY ones who know what my HEART

 sounds like from the INSIDE."

youre my beautiful beautiful babies. 

im blessed to be your mother. 

and i love you in ways i will never be able to explain. 

i pray every day that i get more time with you to show you. 

you ARE my life. 

my HEARTs.

youre everything to me babies.

Maya belle

Hi love.
Its 315 am.
Next to me, daddy sleeps.
Jude sleeps in his room.
So does uncle.
And me, I am awake...and I feel you stirring. You're excited this early morn.
What are you doing in there punching about maya belle?
Oh how I love feeling you move. You make me smile and I just adore you being in there.

Love you belles!

Lover you!

just laying in bed thinking about you.

love you maya belle!

October First events...

the other day we went to our dear dear friend Noah's wedding. :]

Mahmee has known Noah for about 5 years now, and loves his family berry much.

he was getting married to Jessica, a lady he loves SO much! im so happy they are together and married and happy :]

thanks for being my date Maya Belle.

Maya baby!

Mahmee had to take some medicine because my back hurt soooo bad. But I'm taking it easy for you babe. Love you bunny!

Its all gravy baby..

You make mahmee want gravy.
All the time.
I can't get enough!

(Love you!)