first day of the term

i did 2 assignments and scored 100% on a quiz i didnt need to do til the end of the week. 

im proud of me. 

im going to school because i know what i want and im going after it. 

daddy's help is so pivotal. im so blessed he supports me. you have a wonderufl daddy. 

for you? imma make you babies proud. im so in love with you both. i wish that i could show you in words how much i love you, but words will never be enough. 

i live to make you proud. and to make sure you feel my love. 

when youre big? college isnt necessary to make me proud. be HAPPY. be SELFLESS. be KIND. be PASSIONATE.

if you have a dream that requires college? buckle down, go and work hard. 

if your dream doesnt involve college? then dont! 

you are amazing. you can be anything you want with hard work, love, passion, faith, and determination. 

im SO proud of you already babies.

know this. 

even if you never do anything else in your life but be my babies, im PROUD of you. 

im filled with pride to be your mother. to stand next to your daddy and watch you. 

i.love.you.

may that always be the thing that resonates in your mind about me. 

if thats all you ever take from this blog, take this: your love, and my love for you, are my breaths.

i breathe it, and i couldnt exist without it. 

thank you, thank you for loving me and choosing us. 

mahmee and daddy love you!

rolling over!

so you are 4 months and 3 days old baby and you rolled! tummy to back!

youre laying there talking to daddy and being very vocal about your hatred for tummy time lol. 

love it. 

im proud of you girl!

As you sleep

I'm sitting next to you, and watching as you drift into slumber, and and baby I'm enamored.. Youre a part of my soul that I can hardly believe I didn't have before. I'm so smitten with you and you will always have me and my love.. Daddy and i love you sooooooo much and your brother is so in love too.. We are so good together baby.. Thanks for choosing us!

Sleep sweet narae.. My sweet sweet maya. Youre perfect and I love you.

Sweet dreams baby girl.

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:)

Best ever.

You love waking up.. First thing you do is smile and talk to me as if to exclaim "holy crap mamma I'm alive!" these are my favorite moments. As I write this you're sleeping in my arms while I rest. I feel very sick today, but my milk keeps you healthy and daddy is coming to play with you so that i can rest! :)

Brother and sister love.

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As we cuddled on the couch I began to think of you growing up and what you'd be like.

I snuggled close. Kissed you and breathed you in.
And said this.

"There is nothing that could make me (able to) love you more, and nothing that would make me love you less."

I'm at capacity.
You consume my heart.
You're my little soulmate.
You're perfect.

Be you.
It will always be amazing to me.

oh maya

youre amazing. 

i love you. 

i never knew i needed you. 

but you knew. 

you knew. and you picked me. and daddy. and julian. 

and im SO thankful. 

i love you sweets. best Moon ever :)

dont forget this. live your life everyday knowing i love you with ALL of my being. and i love ALL of you. 

Uncle chad :)

He may not be a fan of babies but he talked lots about you. Says he thinks you'll be a reader, a nerd after his own heart (compliment), a thinker, and a quiet but sweet girl.

We shall see :)

I see an artsy girl, funny and sweet, soft spoken. I wonder what you'll be like as you get older....regardless, I'm so so proud to be your mamma.

I love you narae.