so dramatic!
today you were cuddled all close. so sweet.
cuddling with daddy last week. so beautiful.
we went to the beach for your first time yesterday! when i put your feet by the water you seemed startled but excited! we had so much fun! brother kept putting sand on you but you didnt mind. it was precious :) i love you girl! more beasch times to come!
last night after i laid you down to rest i was thinking about when you grow up. one day, my baby girl, youre gonna grow up.
one day youll be an adult.
one day youll meet a person that makes you SO happy.
they will sweep you off your feet. and youll be in love.
youre gonna have a career.
you are going to have your own family.
im gonna hold you close to me always, even when someone else loves you.
youre always gonna be my girl.
you will always be my perfect little girl.
im so smitten with you.
i just cuddle you all the time.
because im so smitten. :]
know that there you have my heart, and i am SO thankful for all the talks we will have. the moments we bond, the cuddling, the hand holding, the learning.
im looking forward to the shopping. the movies we will go to. the girls dates for lunch. having "tea" parties when youre younger, and coffee dates when youre older.
i look forward to touring colleges with you. to having special girls road trips.
i want to experience everything with you. sometimes it will be you and me. sometimes you and me and brother. sometimes you, me, brother and daddy. sometimes daddy and you. daddy and you and brother. im excited for all the times we'll spend together, growing our bond.
we're the best family ever :)
i worry youll never know how much i love you.
but then i think...
you have to feel it too. your smile tels me so :)
i wrote this on my public profile yesterday:
When you're born you know no language. You have no thoughts only feelings. Incredibly primal and indescribable feelings. You cry, you smile, you get sad, you get angry with your whole body because you know nothing other than your driving emotion. when something makes you feel a certain way, its pure, not clouded by confusion or words. Its unfiltered, natural emotion. Maya knows not WHY she feels the way she does at any given time, she just feels it with her whole body. She sees or feels something and her whole being decides gthat she either likes it or doesn't. and realizing THAT point, makes it SO much more amazing when she looks around, sees me and smiles with her whole body and heart. Because for some reason i make her whole being happy just by existing, and that is an incredible feeling.
Ciao for now my Bella.
