:)

i think a lot of thoughts to you Maya.

its sweet. i feel like sometimes you hear my thoughts and it lulls you to sleep.

i wonder:

Will you look like daddy? or mommy? or julian?

Will you be artsy? a giver? a sports fanatic?

Will you be a daddy's girl or a mommy's girl?

Will you like Pink and nail polish? or fotballs and skinned knees?

will you be my princess or my sporto?

What do you do in there? is it scary and cramped or comfy and cozy?

When will you come? will you come out on your due date and share a birthday with keemy? or will you be fashionably late? will you arrive a little early or a lot early?or will they have to force you out because you like it too much?

Will you be a happy sweet cuddle bug? or an independent thinker?

Will you be small and petite? or strong and able to fend for yourself?

i wonder a lot about you and Jude. i imagine it may take him a little bit to get a hold on the brother thing, but it makes me wonder what if he immediately steps in...and you become his world?

i wont lie, maya, sometimes i get scared that i wont be as awesome a mom to you as i am to julian. i worry, "what if im a great boy mom, but not a good mother for a perfect ltitle girl?" what if im not a great role model? im not good with fashion or cooking or sewing. I dont know about dolls and princesses and i hate disney movies half the time. what if im no good with a girl?

im gonna learn what i can sweets, because you deserve the bestest. you already are gonna have the best daddy, and you are gonna have him wrapped around your fingers.
im gonna do my best. and as long as you do yours too, we'll be just fine :)

right now as i type this you are rolling around in my tummy ad i wonder...do you know how much i love you?

to the moon and back Maya Moon.